I had my first ‘therapy’ session, I was meant to be starting one to one CBT with my local NHS mental health service. The day or two before your appointment you have to fill in some of the questionnaires to see how you’re doing and the therapist can see your progress etc. I started my …
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Depression
Depression is not the same for everyone, just the same as how OCD & anxiety are experienced differently by different people. For me depression crept up slowly. It was small moments in every day that turned into big moments, that ended up turning into whole days. I knew when to laugh or when to cry, …
Life lately
It’s been a few years since I’ve written anything here and initially that was because towards the end of 2020 I had my baby (J) and we began adjusting to life as a family of 4. I had a great start to motherhood the second time round, such a contrast to my experiences with H …
How things have changed…
Over the past few weeks & months so many things have changed in my life. We have had a family member staying in our spare room for some time now and although they will be moving out in the next few weeks it’s hard having that extra person. I’m pregnant, which in itself is a …
It’s been a while…
Hasn’t it just?! I’m going to be honest, I’m not in a great place right now. I’m in my third trimester of pregnancy and a time that should be filled with joy and love are just filling me with dread right now. I feel awful because I’m not giving my best self to H, I’m …
Update November ‘19
I didn’t manage to write a blog post between my sessions & I’ve already had my 6th session but I thought I’d talk about how I was feeling in between my last 2 sessions as I feel like a lot has happened and I don’t want to waffle on too much and end up with …
CBT Week 5
I’m so bad at keeping on top of this writing, I write everything down in my notebook but am so bad at getting round to typing things up!! So this is from my fifth session which was actually a few weeks ago now! This weeks session was 2 weeks after my last session as I …
CBT Week 3
Week 3 was last weeks session which I have written about in my notebook so it’s not me tackling it from a week ago! After each session I like to write down what we spoke about, what we decided and how I felt it went. I feel like it really helps me to make sense …
The past 3 years
I was having a little catch up on a Facebook group I’m on a few days ago and it was basically asking what had happened over the last 3 years for those new members or those who had taken time out of the group just to catch up. It got me thinking about how much …
Reassurance
Reassurance is a big big part of my OCD. I constantly seek reassurance mainly from my husband. That he is ok, my son is ok, I’m doing ok, that I’m loved, that he finds me attractive, that others like me, the list goes on and on. It’s exhausting for me & it’s exhausting for him. …
OCD, Anxiety & Me 