What are you proud of?

A few months ago I was at a social event and towards the end of the night there were only 3 or 4 couples left so we had a little mr & mrs game. For the most part this was really fun and we got to know the other couples a little better. There was one question however that threw me, not because I didn’t know what the answer was for my partner but because I couldn’t think of a single thing for me.

What is your partner most proud of?

I could think of countless things for J. Things he would be proud of but I couldn’t think of a single thing for myself. What am I proud of in my life? Not other people but things I have done or achieved. I couldn’t say H because I’ve failed him. I could not think of a single other thing that I could say. I cried for a long time after we got home and J tried to tell me different achievements I’ve had while I explained them away with failures.

Remembering this evening has made me think that I probably do have things to be proud of but I never ever think of myself as good enough. I want to change this. I am going to list my achievements and not attach negative remarks to them, I’m just going to write them down in my journal and look at them. Every achievement is a reason to feel proud. Big or small, personal or public. Once I’ve done this I am going to write reasons why I SHOULD feel proud of these. I’m going to write all the positive emotions these things make me feel and then I’m going to read it back to myself.

I know I have reasons to feel proud of myself but I really struggle to self promote even in the slightest way. I hope this goes well and I can end up writing a positive post about being proud of myself. But, for now I’d like to know what makes you proud of yourself?